The best lesson I've learned this year was not how to make turmeric milk, although that one was pretty tasty. It was not learning to be a new kind of mom, although that was fun, challenging, silly, and heart opening. And neither was it learning and applying the Marie Kondo method (but that was another great one) or learning to be still (so good!) or how to put myself out there.
The best lesson I learned this year was loving myself; where I am and who I am at all times. I have learned to accept myself equally when 10 people say no as when I receive one resounding yes; although the later is quite a bit more enjoyable. I have learned to accept that sometimes I feel balanced and able to take on the world and at other times I plop face first into reality tv. I accept that while I may be a lot of wonderful things; a passionate creator, businesswoman, nutritionist, mom, wife, and friend ... I also face times of struggle in the depths of each of those roles as well.
But the lesson hasn't been that I have been good or bad or anything in between. The lesson has been that through it all, in the peaks and the valleys, I had been present in my body and accepted who I am. I know that I am not just comprised of success, but I am made up of struggle as well. And all of it makes me, well, me. That has been my lesson. That I accept my personal successes, failures, emotional outbursts, tranquility, peace, inspiration, and anger and I hold them all close and embrace them with patience. And at times even though I may not like the way I approach something, I still love me. That I can sit with myself in joy, in loss, in love and feel compassion, support, and gratitude for who I am. I know that not one of my experiences will stay the same all the time, just as a piece of nature or a relationship or a feeling in the air cannot be bottled and held stagnant forever. I am changing, evolving, and with that there will be triumphs, there will be mistakes, and there will be things that happen that are not even worth mentioning. And I accept it all and I have learned to accept myself with patience, gratitude, and humility ... my entire, ever changing, ever evolving, imperfect self. I accept my whole self and my strides and my however many steps back... with love. And that is the best lesson I have learned this year.
You have one self. You can choose to allow what you do and how you feel affect your self-worth. Or you can take a step back, acknowledge that all these ups and downs are just another part of life and that your life is happening in this very way, in its own time, for its very own, perfect reason. You can choose to learn on this path or not. And you certainly can choose to accept your whole self too.
In these last few days of this year, I invite you to reflect and look back on this year and what you have learned and experienced. And however it may have looked or felt, to love yourself all the same. Much love to you and happy few more days of this beautiful year.